20090123, 22:39
hellooooos~
today was veryvery fun. had pe, then amath, class party, chem test, then cny concert. after school went back to yu neng with jeremy and zhen lu. saw mdm ng, and zhen lu saw 3? of his teachers. and i couldnt help but notice that the p1s were really small. and that they seemed scared of us cause we were so big -sighs.
went back to school at 3. helped a bit painting the classroom. didnt help a lot though.. sorryy. then washed up with manda and derick and ahgwee. played water! haha. and saw two millipedes or centipedes and another bug with super long legs. manda and i screamed! lol. thenthenthenn.. finished washing up, went back to class, cleared the classroom, and sat down to eat chips and gossip (: left 'round six.
you: i dont think you'll ever read this, but if you do.. i guess this time its for real, no more history repeating itself ever again, no more this, no more that, no more a lot of things. i cant say i wont miss that. i cant say i wont miss you at first. i cant say i'll be able to get used to it, not for a long while that is. i cant say its not my fault that i didnt give up earlier, i cant say its entirely your fault. i cant say i'll know how to face you in class. cause i wont. i cant say a lot of things. *sighs* you've been wanting me to give up on you for a very long time alr. loving you had became a habit that i wasnt willing to break, guess i finally did break it in the end. time heals all wounds aye. i used to tell myself. if i ever let you go, it wouldnt be cause i didnt love you anymore, but cause i loved you too much. i guess i was wrong. and.. i just wish i could have heard those words from you. instead of my best friend.
bestfriend: thanks for being there for me, thanks for telling me all this, thanks for helping me let go. i know i havent been a good friend lately. really really sorry =/ loveya (:
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